Prayers for Patience

Well this week I have been pretty anxious. I can honestly say I've felt at peace for the past 3 or 4 months but now I'm getting anxious again. I can't help how I feel but it is what it is. It all comes down to why does so and so get to be blessed with a second or third baby and we haven't had 1 yet? Why did that person get matched after waiting a week and we've been waiting 8 1/2 months? Why Why Why??? There is a reason for it I am sure of it. I just don't particularly understand it right now. God is in control I know this. We will be blessed with a baby I know this. I'm just having a hard time figuring out why our time is yet to come.

Thanks to the world of blogging I can actually write what I'm feeling and feel better. I know some probably don't check in on the blog that often, but for those that do, thanks for thinking of us. Some day I'll have to print out all these journal entries and show our child just how much we went through.

Prayers for friends

A few weeks ago I found out that some friends of ours were expecting a baby. K is 37 and G is 44. This was not planned or expected. They have a 9 year old daughter S. The only symptoms K experienced was tiredness and moodiness. After an examination and ultrasound it was determined she was 18 weeks pregnant. They were very shocked but estatic as they didn't even think this was possible. Due to K's age they sent her to get a few more tests. It has been determined that baby girl is missing most of her left ventricle and the valve is too small. It is such a sad situation. Please pray for this family. We know that God plants miracles and I know we are praying with all our heart that Baby girl will make it and prove to us what a miracle she really is.

WAIT (a poem)

Wait Desperately, helplessly, longingly I cried,
Quietly, patiently, lovingly He replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate.
And the Master so gently said, “Child, you must wait.”

“Wait! You say wait!” my indignant reply,
Lord, I need answers - I need to know why.
Is Your hand shortened, or have You not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I’m claiming Your word.”

My future and all to which I can relate,
Hangs in the balance and You tell me ‘wait’?
I’m needing a ‘yes’—a go ahead sign,
Or at least a ‘no’ to which I can resign.

And Lord, I’ve been asking and this is my cry,
I’m weary of asking, I need a reply,
Then quietly, softly I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied, once again, “You must wait.”

So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut.
And I grumbled to God—”So I’m waiting, for what?”
He seemed then to kneel and His eyes met with mine,
And He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign.”

“I could shake the heavens, darken the sun,
Raise up the dead, cause the mountain to run.
All you seek, I could give and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want, but you wouldn’t know Me.”

“You’d not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You’d not know the power that I give to the faint.
You’d not learn to see through clouds of despair.
You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there.”

“You’d not know the joy of resting in Me.
When darkness and silence was all you could see.
You’d never experience that fullness of love,
As the peace of my Spirit descends like a dove.”

“You would know that I give and save for a start,
But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart,
The glow of My comfort, late in the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,

“The depth that’s beyond getting just what you ask,
Of an infinite God that makes what you have last!
And you never would know should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that, “My grace is sufficient for thee.”

Yes, your dreams for that loved one,
One night would come true.
But oh the loss if you lost what I’m doing to you.

So be silent, my child, and in time you will see,
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And though oft may My answers seem terribly late,
That My most precious answer of all is still ‘wait’.”

by Russell Kelfer